my mood: >;(

crap. these days been feeling so so bad. and im left alone really. i have no one by me now. i have no way to go. no one ot confide with. to say all my sorrows. to cry. to fall. to break down. to vent anger. wads going on? and wads wrong. does he even realise now? i don understand and wad the hell is going on with me and him? i've been so close frens with him, and i think i got a tiff with him jus now. and before that i was mad at him. now i dono wads really going on. and i really feel the pull, not the push. me and my fren, i feel that we are seriously drifting apart. and i dono whether i can even put my heart in it to whether i should confide to him again like before, so close frens like before. i don think we can now. i really needed someone to be with me to hear me out real badly. i cant always rely on jocelyn (tan), she has her things to do and having band. although she's real close to me, i cant always go to her, cuz she's always the one worrying for me. and i think i nearly had a tiff with another fren. which something had happened in the past. i don even have confident to whether i should love someone. well, does he even realise i needed someone so badly. someone whom i can really talk to now.im really feeling very very bad, sad, unhappy, angry and felt so much like crying over somethings. and i really need a bad breakdown. and sch's reopening soon. so everything is like so cramped up. im not prepared for the tart of a new yr yet. i seemed like i really needed someone by me badly.
how i wish so much that i've grown much older. so i can drink. and sorrows all out. and while i can stop time do wadeva i could.
is loving someone wrong? i needed that (fren) badly.

12/15/2007 10:45:00 PM ·