this urge of feeling that grabs on to me dso tightly, perhaps i need someone to grab to. will i experience better things in life? being optimistic is one thing. trying to remember god is fair? i can accept that, my life has'nt been good. last night thought so hard, was thinking all about the things that has happened these weeks perhaps. and all the bad and good. nothing has turn to become something good. thhinking of all these things, made my mood feel so bad. tears start dwelling up in my eyes and slowly it rolled down my cheeks last night. its so painful. how can i let go. a somehow close fren told me this: pain has this 1 quality. if prolonged, it cannot be severe. if severe, it cannot be prolonged. sigh. so wads going on, im not clear.

the sense of getting lost.
the feeling of the blues.
vividly reminded of the bads more than the goods.
later part of life this yr,
how do i carry on from here?
from this state.
how do i clear up the mess that u have left.

1/20/2008 10:32:00 PM ·