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TAURUS. 03.05.93. ex TVPS, DYSS 402'09 imma track captain student leader. owns 2 dogs imma rocker plays a guitar. Insert Cbox code here
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Friday, February 1, 2008
boredom kills
haven been feeling right. in a sense. the correct way i am. the official lunar new year is not here yet and im already suffering the blues. all the problems came crashing on me. all rushed towards me. crash. here it goes. i have no way to solve things like those. jus felt like confronting towards the problem or even, find the answer myself. but in the end, was being hurt so badly. wads the use now. all of them are like total strangers. still thinking whether i should jus run away, really run away from it. or, to jus wait for the answers. its very torturing now. why cant ppl jus treat me nicely. instead of giving me all these problems and cleaning up the mess in the end. or even, wad would ppl benefit from scolding.. and im always getting these words. bitch. sounds common to u guys out there perhaps. but it isn't to me. ppl used this words on me. wads the use then. well, if this is happening jus because of a small misunderstanding. i've got to say this is dam wrong.
sometimes it really hurts so much. that i wanted to jus break down like that. cry all i can. shout and scream. do al these till i lost my voice. tire myself. so that wadever sms i cant send. that will like cause so much ease to ppl. but torture myself. this isn't the use. i don feel the old me. somethng's wrong. something changed me terribly. all the outcomes from all different things. jus couldn't get the right answers to it. i don feel the way i am anymore. can anyone tell me wad has really happened. cuz, so far, everything's in me. i have yet to throw it out. keeping tantrums, tears inside of me. its bursting anytime. save me. im wishing so much. thiings could jus turn back in time. let it heal. and jus let me have what i want. and live with no regrets in life. i wanna enjoy life now. cuz it isn't the way i want. hence, itsthe other way round, its torturing me badly. even ppl are doing so on me. [does your words tells wad u mean inside? have u ever get words that are so negative that could let u break down. i jus couldn't take in wad u said. i sense something's really wrong. will wad u say last night make u feel that you've said ur piece on wad u want?] |