why must people be like that.

why must people be like that sometimes, doing things jus to make someone realise something out of something that happened? i mean, to some, they may think that cuz, its the only way, that they talk and make sense when they feel very sentimental, okay and when they feel they are being wronged at some stuffs or being offended somehow.
i jus cant take it nor stand it when people keep raking up things that has been over, where its officially over and rub in the things jus to explain things, i mean, why must they do this.. whereas they claim that they din mean to? and when they already know someone' gonna blow their top and cry or something like that.

i'll taste every moment cuz this is the time of my life. but, this wasn't how i expected it to be. i know wad ppl always say,and i rmb, cuz if in life, there's no challenged that awaits you or gonna surprise you, that wouldn't be life. yes i know, but sometimes, things jus have to come to its limits. like today, for instance, everything started today. i mean, i din know he took that stupid bet with his fren of 50 bucks jus to prove that he is not into some stuff related to me which istrue, but to dao me, WTHECK? its not even worth it la. cuz the girl suspects something, which sounds so unlogical. really.

then, after hearing this, i felt very sentimental out of a sudden and felt real offended somehow, by words itself. then, he explained that im overprotective, i was trying to explain that im not being one and im someone who is very straightforward, many knew that. i even wanted to explain to him that im not being that way but its becaus of some stuffs that happened before that made me feel this way, which is, having to lose a really good fren i used to have. that now treats me like a stranger even on the street. and was his good fren too.

i mean, i know he's trying to make me understand things, and learn from mistakes, but yes i know, but things like these have reasons, reasonable ones alrights, and things haven reveal the full story yet. im like having quarrels with them, its like cold war, cuz most of them says things which are not supposed to come out o their mouth where they knew the consequences. i dinmean to like tell them off but, its something they say and assumes or claims that i am while im not. its fustrating. the words from them, it keeps running in my mind, and making things real dificult for me to get over. and finally, i broke out, i cried horribly, this very night, when i walked my dog downstairs, i happen to see p*****, im glad that he din see the soft side of me jus now, cuz from his view i think its clear to see if i cried, but yah, i din really care. then talked on the hone with jocelyn and she told me saying that why im so dumb or stubborn sometimes, to let people hurt me, directly, through words. i know im someone who's like that, but thats me, i mean, why do humans out there wanna make changes in others to satisfy themselves? but, this me, and cuz im me, my frens out there loves me. for track ppl, my team, one of my pal, actually told me this once:

hey, don worry, don cry. you're like our happy pill [ kai xin guo]. how can u cry. u have me.

i knew, that these bunch of friends are there for me, and im there for them, but like others told me, i have them. but, i cant always rely on them, cuz they are always worrying for me, i don wan to add their burdens, but im reall grateful to have them and to have u and u ard to hear me. and you, to acknowledge me as your fren since the matter happened. but its great news for you to hear cuz i've moved on. =] cheers.


I used to be trippin’ over missin’ you but I’m not any more
When your troubles stayed & occupied
Oh, ask about you whenever I come around.
im glad that we could still talk.=]

6/03/2008 11:21:00 PM ·