why.

how could i even save myself from here.
how? someone tell me.
i don even noe wads going on with me.. how can my friends help.
its shit.. it tears me apart badly.
for those who dragged me down together in this misery,
i'll have you to pay for it.
cuz its shit, you've done this to me.
jus cuz of people like you, you don rule the world.
you don even rule yourself, cuz u cant even save yourself from there.
you jus wanna make ppl miserable. jus like how u are.
don even think seeing u makes me feel guilty.
cuz im not.

i hate this.
i loathe it.
i cried upon it.
i stressed over it.
i feel into a daze upon it.

where should i start.
where should i end.
how should i face it.
or should i go a big round.
i know, life's like that, people tell me.
but, i know, its time to come to a stop.
maybe, i'll nvr find, the medicine to cure the inner self.
or even the solution for the problems to be solved.
i do not know, what to do. you tell me, why is it like that.
don tell me cuz its like that.
cuz i wanna know the answer, badly.

sometimes i sit, i stare, and the inner mind starts running.
like a machine. it never stops working, like how it always will be.
its like a time machine, it brings u flying, passing through the countless problems i see,
problems i've had, but it jus won stop,
stop me from thinking.
i tried so hard, trying to bounce and trounce away the troubles today,
by shooting hoops again and again and again.
but it didn't help, at all.
i hoped so much that it'll jus go away. but it didn't.
i rest, and i wasn't tired after all. i sat, and watched, the countless shots i see people that shoot
into the hoops in the basketball match.
but nothing seems to be going into me. nor enjoyment of watching it.
its crazy.

then i tried, onto my phone.
i texted, trying to find a fren i can talk to... on the phone or sms,
but it didn't seem to work out at all. almost all the people i texted,
gave no respond. only a fren, but he took long. so i din bother him cuz he was busy he told.
i hoped so much, that someone would jus respond to my text but it gave nothing.
wad did i do?
i did nothing today. but jus sat helplessly thinking so much. like time flew so fast.
i just sat there and watched. and watched and watched. thought so hard. but found nothing.
cuz all i did today, was to cry.





i wished my life was this song,
songs that never die,
i could write for year and years,
never have to cry,
i show u how i fail,
without saying a word,
i could ride above the hurts,
i know it sound absurd.
i saw the tears on your face,
i shot u down,
and i slammed the door but couldn't make a sound,
so please stay sweet my dear,
don hate me now.





the way i feel tonight, so down, so down,
thw waves that crashed on me,
take my hands so i can breathe.



i'm drowning.

11/08/2008 11:29:00 PM ·